Dear Mike....... its been a while, too busy, always running like crazy trying to achieve things and trying to do more.... however it still sucks that you are not here, dreams that we both dreamed of together are becoming a reality but it does not feel good and feels hollow. i keep pushing forward, trying my best to achieve what we both dreamed of, trying to compensate, but hell man with every success and every realization of dreams i feel empty and unfulfilled, it really sucks..... not a day is passing by without remembering you, wishing you were here to help or be happy about us reaching another milestone. we got SERIS the generals were blown away and really liked it and they even changed its name to DREAM as a symbol of how it would change civil defence. the first thing me and farooq did after the meeting was go to the last coffeshop we were at together with you, it came without thinking. we felt good but not happy it still felt empty. we are starting to build a professional business unit and we are creating the assets needed with your work at the center but i hate the fact that you are not there to share the challenge and be part of the success. i really really miss you mate and am really really angry of you. you should be here now and i still don't understand or believe that i'll continue to push forward without you. it all feels like a nightmare that i'll wake up from........ sadly it is not and i know that I'll keep pushing alone, yes i do have the team but your spot is too big to be filled by anyone and i'd give anything for this void to be filled. i don't know what am saying now, am just too sad at the moment to understand what i want to tell you, i just really really miss you my dear..... i really hope that this reach's you somehow wherever you are now....